Maintaining a relationship is hard and even harder when you don’t know what that “relationship” is. I know we are more than friends, but I don’t know if he feels the same way.
I mean, we text. Or more truthfully, I text him and he occasionally responds. This was a set up I was willing to live with. This routine made me happy. He made me happy. Perhaps, this was the love I thought I deserved (to quote one of the few books I finished) since this was the closest I could get to him.
I know I deserve better but each time I try to cut him off, he does something that pulls my heart right back.
Today, I want to let him go because it hurts. My heart hurts.
I bought him a piece of his favorite dessert. I texted him and he didn’t respond. I waited in our spot. I called him and he didn’t answer. We were supposed to meet today for our daily afternoon snacks. Minutes passed and still nothing. Maybe it’s intentional that he was avoiding me. Maybe it’s his girlfriend saying that I need to back off.
Maybe…nevermind.
The ice cream is starting to melt.
Pistachio Ice-Cream Filled Macarons 🙂 #dessert #yummy
